I promised in my previous blog, that i will post the part 02: the emotional
continuation is here for that bitter reality.
By: Doi Flordeliz
Capturing their faces is like an agony in my heart. As Habiba shared their piece of little story that we don’t know and witnessed. I was not in the mood with that talk because something is like in my throat that’s difficult for me to deal with. I just throw questions to her without thinking what the content of those questions is. Then I questioned myself, am I being devcom? At a glance then I realized the lessons discussed inside the four walls of the classroom, and in field the situation is very different. I have with me just few bags of candies for the kids and I feel sorry for them. They still dwell of the Holy month of Ramadan, fasting at the evacuation center. It’s totally hilarious and if im in that situation I would really cry, but it seems they are very happy. Happy in the sense that they are away from troubles and the fear that the weapons that the insurgency has brought about.
In our conversation, Habiba and I shared the same insight about the insurgency. At that moment I can’t help but cry Habiba stared at me and said don’t cry it’s okay. Then I found my moment I tilted my head and cry over her shoulders. What triggered my tears to fall is the innocent looks of the children and the pregnant lady that’s was outside the room and the 80 year old woman watching us. They gave me the chance to cry and cry, while I was taking shots I’m wiping off my tears and they just smile at me. At that moment my feeling for them was so hopeless and fearful of what is in store for them in their future.
I went to the tour in the whole vicinity and each room tells a story that the world doesn’t even know. I want the world to see the real situation in the evacuation center. When I was about to leave, before boarding the car I took shots from my position that angles the children waving goodbye, then in shock they were running towards me and I made me cry again and in seconds they were in front of me any waving goodbye and saying “salamat” in bisaya and “salam” in their language. Boarding the car and I slowly closed the door and inside I nodded my head and cry. I closed my eyes at that moment because I don’t want to see the reaction on the faces of those innocent children. I knew then that they were following our convoy and I instructed the driver to go fast because I don’t want to see them and I will cry and cry again.
Maybe, I was a little bit cruel because of that, but I really don’t want to bid goodbye because it hurts inside me. There's this favorite photograph (shown above) that I took during my visit there, and it will remain in my memory forever.